kadang kadang aku takut, tapi selalunya aku lupa.

kadang kadang aku tahu aku silap, tapi selalunya aku tak ubah.

kadang kadang aku tahu aku tak layak, tapi tak pernah rayu pada Dia.

kadang kadang aku malu, tapi aku ego.

kadang kadang aku tahu aku tak mampu, tapi aku tak pernah cuba.

kadang kadang aku harap ada yang bantu, tapi aku selalu lupa yang Allah selalu ada.

the hardest battle is between who you are and who you wanted to be. nak istiqamah sudah cukup susah, nak mujahadah, aduh parah. a dark tunnel, hollow and scary with the unknown make she thinks twice of actually crossing. she see the light end yet she wonders how long will it takes to walk in the darkness. alone on her own feet, with a faith that a hand will grab hers and lead her along the path. she decided ‘its now or never’, she across it. that hand never show up, now she wonder if she would has to turn back yet the light seems so close already. but she is afraid. I’m afraid that she loses her way inside that. I’m afraid she would astray, far from where she should head to. I hope she would keep faith of Allah. ‘jika kita tahu di penghujung kesulitan itu ada kemudahan, pastilah kita minta supaya sentiasa ditimpa kesusahan.’